I find myself in a profound state of stillness, not unlike a depression where silence envelops me, rendering me momentarily speechless, I cannot think of what to write or record, of what to say. Through my healing journey, I've discovered the art of delicately probing the boundaries of this silence, not just allow it to keep me stuck in place. From past history I recognize it as a crucial aspect of my spiritual evolution, a canvas on which the tapestry of my experiences unfolds.
Amid this silence, there is an underlying truth waiting to be unveiled—a truth that may bear a semblance of familiarity but promises a deeper understanding and wisdom once revealed. It brings to mind the profound notion that within nothingness lies the essence of everything! a concept that resonates with the very core of my being.
As I navigate this seeming heavy space, I am cognizant of a subtle yet undeniable movement, even if the intricate details elude my awareness. I await the unfolding of secrets that lie beneath the surface, knowing that they hold invaluable lessons for me. These revelations will equip me with the insights needed to continue my healing journey and extend a helping hand to others.
In peeling away the layers and dismantling the barriers that shroud the love binding us all together, I embark on the sacred work of facilitating healing. It is through this process that we discover our interconnectedness and experience the liberation that accompanies genuine freedom.
So, with patience, I await the unveiling of the profound truth that all LOVE holds, that will guide me on this path of enlightenment ever deeper and enable me to serve others in their quest for healing and self-discovery.
In the face of profound change, I am reminded that transformation at this level echoes a poignant metaphor—it's akin to the death of my former self, paving the way for the emergence of the person I have always been, now destined to become at this new level. This process is one with which I am intimately familiar. Consequently, a profound sense of grief washes over me, as the barriers guarding my true self gradually dissolve, layer by layer.
I have been doing this process, or should I say its been doing me! for 37 years, ever since I quit my chronic alcohol use and started this journey of returning to grace. So I have the history and experience during these times to bolster any lack of faith I might have and keep on keeping on.
May the awareness of all Love become me, become all of us. I look forward to sharing what arises in the hope that I might be more useful and of service to my fellow travelers.
In Spirit, Nigel